I’ve been up for at least an hour and a half, for no apparent reason besides being unable to fall back asleep. My eldest is laying on my stomach and my baby snuggled between Daddy and me.
Many nights I prayed they would sleep through the night so I could rest (it almost never happened). Not that I don’t believe prayer works–it most certainly does. But often times, when prayers go “unanswered” it’s because we are praying the wrong thing. I learned, in those moments, to ask God for His grace to get me through the long days ahead. I asked Him to teach me patience and help me to enjoy this time when my boys look at me with such marvel, unconditional love, and pure joy.
As they lay sound asleep and I wide awake, I’ve been praying for God to help me go back to sleep…
Obviously…I’ve been praying the wrong thing.
As I open my “She Reads Truth” app and continue my way through the book of Psalms (which usually helps me rest easy) I begin to repent of the things worrying me–those things I try desperately to pretend as if I’m not thinking about them or that I’ve, actually, fully trusted God to handle. And as I pray, He speaks to me, telling me to intercede for certain people, to trust in Him as my Father–that no issue or desire is bigger than Him. He’s got my whole life in His hands and I need not worry about my future, He already knows what my tomorrow holds.
While this is a truth I know, and He’s reminded me time and time again, I’m thankful He never gets tired of reminding.
He’s so mindful.
That’s what He would have me tell you.
God is thinking about you.
Have you ever thought about that? In all that is going on in the world, He thinks of YOU. He knows your name. You can rest in knowing that every victory assigned to you has already been won, so even when it may look or feel like you are losing, His promises say otherwise.
Whatever issue you are facing, I encourage you to take it to the feet of Jesus. Lay down your load. Rest in knowing God is thinking of you, and His plans for you are good (Jeremiah 29:11).
Now that I’ve been obedient, I feel my Help coming, and I can join the men of my life in deep slumber (well, as deep a slumber as a mama can get).
Jesus loves you. Never forget that.